♣ Imagine me&you.

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31 January, 2012 | 11:24 PM

Haha. I copy-pasted this

wet blan·ket

Noun:

A person who spoils other people's fun by failing to join in with or by disapproving of their activities.

at Russell alooot of times because he was pointing out all the problems I'd face if I were to abandon civilisation and go to China to open a Panda conservation centre. I love baby pandas. They're so cute :( but I guess I'll just settle for a cute panda stuffed toy... Even though I'm almost 19. Yep. Some things never change. My mum says she still loves stuffed toys, can I blame it on genetics? In my case nature and nurture both point to ILOVESTUFFEDTOYS so I can't be blamed.. Wadup.

But haven't I always loved you?

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29 January, 2012 | 11:50 PM

WHY ISN'T IT GOING AWAY, IT SHOULD BE GOING AWAY :(

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 9:43 PM

Always close, never close enough

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 5:07 PM

I hate the feeling of unrequited affection (dare I call it that?) knowing you don't stand a chance

I hate the feeling of thinking about what could be... when it's impossible

I hate over-reading gestures of kindness thinking there could be more to it than meets the eye

Hope's good, but sometimes there are some things you just shouldn't hope for because disappointment is inevitable

But haven't I always loved you?

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02 October, 2010 | 10:23 PM

I just want you to know that I love you, and I am hoping that we'll have less problems. But if asking you to change.. is to go against your biological inclinations.. I'd rather let go and cause you less pain.

But haven't I always loved you?

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07 August, 2010 | 3:58 PM

"Prove that you love me."

"How do I prove love? Well, I'd willing spend my time with you than do the other things that interest me. I'd forgo time spent with friends, reading things online, just chilling. I'd wake up at unearthly hours even though I lack sleep."

"That doesn't prove anything."

"I'd travel miles just to see you for a while. I'd risk getting scolded by my parents for being out late. But it's worth it."

"I'm not convinced."
"How do you prove love, then?"
"Well, for starters I'd wait for you week after week on your promises. It doesn't matter that you've broken them time and time again, because whenever you say you won't break it this time, I believe you. I trust you. Even if you keep breaking them, I'd still be here because I love you and no matter what I just can't leave you. Call me stupid but.. Maybe that's what love makes you. Vulnerable, stupid. Hopeful, stupid. Reliant, stupid. Dependent, stupid. And above all else... Takes everything away from you such that on your own it'd be impossible to keep on living - stupid."

But haven't I always loved you?

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31 July, 2010 | 11:03 PM

Somehow, even though I know it will cause me even more hurt in the future, I keep wishing you would magically appear by some miraculous act of love of some sort and remind me that we do have something special. But I know it's not going to happen, because fairytales are only make believe. I don't want to give up, but... It's the only solution I see right now. Know always that you were my first and true love. I only wish with all my heart things could've worked out differently, but I've waited around and I can't see that. You're not what I expect, it's just not like you. I'm not saying you're less than perfect, because you are in your own way. It just so happens that your way isn't what I'm looking for.

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

I'll cherish these memories forever. I hope you do too. I love you.

But haven't I always loved you?