Somehow, even though I know it will cause me even more hurt in the future, I keep wishing you would magically appear by some miraculous act of love of some sort and remind me that we do have something special. But I know it's not going to happen, because fairytales are only make believe. I don't want to give up, but... It's the only solution I see right now. Know always that you were my first and true love. I only wish with all my heart things could've worked out differently, but I've waited around and I can't see that. You're not what I expect, it's just not like you. I'm not saying you're less than perfect, because you are in your own way. It just so happens that your way isn't what I'm looking for.

We should just be friends. Then I won't expect so much of you. There's so much of you you can't give me right now, I think I'll just wait until you can. Don't get me wrong, I'm not leaving you. I'll always be here for you, waiting until you're ready to give me your all, because I'm ready to give you my all and I'm willing to, if only you could reciprocate it, because I don't want a little of you. I want all of you. It's all or nothing.

Stayed at home the whole day alone waiting for you. I thought it would be worth it. I could've gone out, I could've helped my mum move. I could've done so many things. But I preferred to spend just a little time with you. And now I don't even know where you are, what you're doing. You don't even respond. I feel scared. How often is this going to happen? I'm losing faith. If you love me, show it. Words don't mean anything.

It's times like these that make me wonder whether it really is going to get better or not.. It's past 4 and you haven't even told me what's going on. I know I'm supposed to be strong but.. It's tough. It really is.

I am such a demanding bitchy girlfriend. Why do you still hang around? It puzzles me.

It takes you little over half an hour to get there.. And you could've come late.. I really wanted to see you.. Guess I'll see you in 2 weeks. Can't be that bad since you don't seem to mind.