♣ Imagine me&you.

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28 April, 2010 | 9:20 PM

Gah, I don't know why I still feel jealous/suspicious of you sometimes even though you always say you'll never cheat on me or lie to me. Argh, it annoys me that I don't trust you! What's wrong with me :( I feel jealous when you talk to other girls, but I never actually considered if you might ever feel the same way when I talk to guys... Do you? Iunno. Must be me being paranoid again. And I'm not even PMSey yet! I wish I could deal with this problem :( Suckiness.

But haven't I always loved you?

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24 April, 2010 | 11:17 AM

I have deduced why I'm always so mean/nasty/cold to you.

Step 1: I'm angry/upset/disappointed with/in you. Then

2: I'm mean to you.

3: I miss you insanely, but because of step 2, I try to keep you away because

4: it causes me pain and I deserve it because of 2.

5: Repeat 3&4 tenfold, intensifying emotions as we go along.

So. fucked. up.

But haven't I always loved you?

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23 April, 2010 | 10:17 PM

i wonder what life would be like without you :\ I miss you, but I think I just might be able to get used to not having you around. Like, this whole week we've hardly talked and.. I don't even know if I'll get to see you tomorrow and stuff. I guess I have to find a way to cope with it, and maybe I've just... I don't know :\ stopped myself from missing you too much or something. But even then, it's just an illusion. I wish you were here. I wish you could be around more often. I miss you. *broken heart*

But haven't I always loved you?

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17 April, 2010 | 12:13 PM

Tell me why i should stay in this relationship baby

When i'm hurting, baby

I ain't happy, baby.

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 11:01 AM

Why do I always feel like I can't rely on you? Prove me wrong

But haven't I always loved you?

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07 April, 2010 | 6:40 PM

You're never here. I told you. You never tell me anything, you're not around. Today proves it.

"We go days without having a meaningful conversation, and i use to miss you so much when that happened... but it never seemed like you missed me. And i guess because of it, i stopped missing you."

I don't want that to be us, and i try, believe me i do, but i can't stop it from happening. So please, help me.

But haven't I always loved you?

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04 April, 2010 | 5:50 PM

These things that i've said

this pen on this paper

will never be heard because silence is safer

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 5:31 PM

i'm a walking contradiction. what i'd give to see you now... but yet i keep telling you not to come. i love you so much, words are not enough... yet i want to end our relationship. i don't know, i really don't. i wish someone could tell me what to do, and i wouldn't question, i'd just do. i think non-sentient creatures are better off than we are. they feel no pain, no hurt. no sorrow. no disappointment.

but then again, they know no love. i don't know. is the pain worth it, in the end? i wish i could just enjoy the happiness, and pretend the sadness never existed. to live in self-denial. won't i be happier? i wish you were here.

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 4:20 PM

even if i fucking hate you, i will always want you around. whenever i'm upset with you i punish myself by refusing to see you, and when you agree it breaks me apart. when i insist you don't come over, part of me chants 'he's not coming, he's not coming' but my heart just hopes by some act of God you'll be here anyway. but with hope comes disappointment. all the time. i'm just not good enough for you, i'm sorry. believe me, the pain i feel will be a thousandfold the pain that you may ever feel for losing me.

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 10:26 AM

60 things a girl wants, but won't say. (Oops, thick-skin x_x)

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means she doesnt want to talk about it - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of other girls you know
26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call or text her every night to wish her sweet dreams
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back it feels good
47. Give her your coat if she's cold,thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger it feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. Dont poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. Hold her hand in public
52. Even if she looks bad one day tell her she's Beautiful
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nervous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

But haven't I always loved you?