♣ Imagine me&you.

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30 January, 2010 | 11:43 AM

thank you for being you. i know you don't like these thankiews, but i just want you to know a few things :x

thank you for being in my life ♥ thank you for accepting me for who i am (even though i'm really fat and childish and stubborn) thank you for coming all the way here all the time even if it's just for a few hours, it means alot to me. thank you for sacrificing your activities/prior engagements to meet me (like your dance thingys) and thank you for always reassuring me that you'll never leave. just know that you're awesome in so many more ways than one :) and i love you so much ♥ i'll never leave you either.

P.S. If we really get married can we negotiate the marriage details? I think it would be mildly traumatic if you really ran into the place in your underwear/swimming trunks or sth. HAHA

But haven't I always loved you?

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26 January, 2010 | 6:51 PM

get well soon love! (then you can stop sleeping through the whole day) ♥

But haven't I always loved you?

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25 January, 2010 | 4:20 PM

aaah i'm totally attached to you. i hope you won't mind *blush* i miss you already! even though you left like 5mins ago. hahaha you walk really slowly, you know? :P saw you from my window. thank you for being so awesome (: iloveyou~

P.S. you're still a pig. ♥ just a really lovable one

close your eyes, make a wish, this could last forever!

take my hand, take my life, just don't take forever~

(Heehee, i'm a lyric-thief)

But haven't I always loved you?

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24 January, 2010 | 7:36 PM

i hereby dedicate this post to my boyflen. i lerff you, boyflen! ♥ why are you not replying on msn!! it's so hurtful :( chiu broke mai hart.

anwanw, thank you for being there for me, and for being so awfully sweet! yes, that one-line post on "shit, he's so sweet" was about YOUUU. because you really touched me back then (not literally, though you DID literally touch me..) i'm sorry i'm so shy! it's just that i really don't want to do something embarrassing and have you go all wtf on me! i'll really try to drop my guard when i'm with you. no hiding, no secrets! (you asked for it. don't regret this HEHE)

my manly voice :( i feel insecure when you talk about my manly voice! because imo manly voice isn't cool sob. for a girl. but then you'd say i'm not even a girl. grrr.

nonetheless, thank you for accepting me for who i am, manly voice/tranny-ness and all. i absolutely accept you too, even though you like dancing in great open crowded spaces with people shamelessly, and you sing pokemon songs in public and how you're so absolutely horny (like uncontrollably :x) AND. YOU. PLAY. YUGIOH. and even made me learn it. i still love you! and i always will (: (not that it's a boring/lame game. it's quite cool, just vair complicated) have faith! there's no such thing as 5% love! it's just love. ♥ the most wonderful thing in the world, like you. i'm so glad i met you! you're the greatest ass i've ever known (: it's a compliment! because if you weren't one, we never would've met and my life would be that much more empty/meaningless without you.

there you go! i blogged a happy post on this peculiar blog JUST FOR YOU.

iloveyou♥

But haven't I always loved you?

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20 January, 2010 | 1:11 PM

i love not blogging here! blogging here means i'm depressed/insecure/sad/in mourning/etc. yaay. it's because of the dark, gloomy colours D: i attribute all my depression/emotional ranting to pms. DEFINITELY PMS. it sneaks up behind you and.. creates emotional distraught.

*poof* i am so not depressed! life is great. (LG) oh wait that's life's good. POOF~

But haven't I always loved you?

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18 January, 2010 | 8:43 AM

WHY DID I HAVE TO GO DO THAT? i want to see you :( i miss you more than you know. but i can't help myself from falling for you, and that won't do. i don't wanna be in love. it makes you vulnerable. it gives someone power over you. unrequited, it makes you feel useless/worthless. impossibility makes it worse.

i wish you were over it/her :S but that's just wishful thinking. so i'm doing what i only know how to, to prevent this. i'm running away. escapism. sorry :\

T.T how now? saying i'm suffering from internal conflict is the understatement of the century. i'll learn.. how to stop myself from feeling this way, if it's the only chance i have of being close to you.

But haven't I always loved you?

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17 January, 2010 | 11:58 PM

sometimes i'm afraid to write how i feel, because you might leave. i'm insecure like that, and stuff, even though you've tried to reassure me otherwise. i just don't wanna lose you, no matter how childish/possessive that sounds :\

i don't want hug-withdrawal!! it's horrible. i get this compulsion to hug people (which is really weird/could be catastrophic in jc) hug-withdrawal sucks. :(

But haven't I always loved you?

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16 January, 2010 | 5:19 PM

I NEED TO STOP BLOGGING HERE HAHAHAHA. *Faint*

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| 4:45 PM

Did I hear you right?
'Cause I thought you said let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light,
Where a love once shined so bright
It came without a reason

Don't let go on us tonight, love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here, and I know that's not enough

But when I'm with you, I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

I would change the world if I had a chance
Oh won't you let me?
Treat me like a child;
Throw your arms around me, oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you, you're almost here
(Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you)
And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted)
Now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
'Cause I know I'm almost here
(Only almost here)

Brian McFadden ft. Delta Goodrem - Almost Here (DELTA, REALLY.)
OH THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL, I LOVE IT. but it's so sad!! SIGH

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 4:17 PM

wehh i really shouldn't be getting any ideas/my hopes up. i understand. i just wish it were easier/less complicated. i'm sorry :\ for making it so messy when it's supposed to be so simple.

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15 January, 2010 | 2:10 PM

t; i don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

LISTEN. i don't want to stay another minute. i don't want you to say a single word. there is no other way. i dont want to do this any longer, there's nothing left to say.

pcd :3 ohoho. i'm so glad we're over, really. when did the world start revolving around you? i was just a possession. pssh.

But haven't I always loved you?

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14 January, 2010 | 10:42 PM

okay i'm not exactly 'in love' or depressed to this extent per se, but it's nice knowing there are people in the world out there who feel like this too and can actually put the feeling into words.

I AM NOT. this is not me. yet, anyway.

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 10:30 PM

i just totally feel like spamming gavin degraw 'follow through' lyrics here, but i kind of decided to stop typing out song lyrics (at least i won't type out the whole song anymore) on blogs because, really, who wants to read song lyrics on people's blogs?!?! there's like no music and stuff. bleh. might as well make it my bgm.

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? omg shit i need to stop.

sooooooo, since you won't be with me, you'll have to follow through with every word you say;
CONTROL..
and i, all i really want is you, for you to stick around..

OKAY. I NEED TO STOP!! kejagbajerbgarh. *Poof*

But haven't I always loved you?

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13 January, 2010 | 5:27 PM

cmonxz where'd your senses go. it's really obvious that you're not vair important. stupid, stupid.

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| 8:42 AM

it's not fair, i don't want this!

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 8:20 AM

goood lord i feel so tempted to move this blog.

But haven't I always loved you?

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12 January, 2010 | 10:26 PM

shit, he's so sweet. this sucks badly.

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| 6:35 PM

i'm totally over __. like totally. anyway, today i went out with davinci :o HIS SINGING IS :O omgwtfbbq. like wangleehom HAHA. gosh.

now the count is 2. i feel like panya, seriously. I AM SLUTTYY. ugh. how siah. :\

davinci got same psle as me! LOL! so tyco pls, same score. smart ass... (and knows this, unfortunately) Yeah. and apparently fish and other tinier things are non-sentinent. WHAT A REVELATION. so now we can eat smoked salmon without feeling bad. YAY FOR SMOKED SALMON!! i may be falling for a womanising testosterone machine. oh dear..

hard rock cafe layter. need to go bathe. adieu~

But haven't I always loved you?

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08 January, 2010 | 9:40 AM

great my maid chucked 1kg of corn beef into a single sandwich. on the plus side it's only half as salty as before. however, that is also a downside. WHERE MA SALT, YO? this is unsatisfactory. pssh. oh well x.x

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 9:29 AM

i think it's getting easier now. this is right (: i just hope we'll still be friends in time to come.

But haven't I always loved you?

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04 January, 2010 | 10:39 PM

This is for me. For remembrance; regret.

How many times have you seen your bestfriend naked? idk

Ever walked into the opposite sex's bathroom by accident? yes

How old were you when you first got drunk? never

How old were you when you first did it? 16. fml.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? nope

Have you seen your boyfriend/girlfriend naked? no, because i don't have one.

Have you made out with the one you love? yes

Ever worn a thong? no. maybe for self-amusement, but that's that

What's your opinion on break-ups? painful

Describe your worst breakup? err, painful.

Ever been dumped? no.

Ever dumped? yes.

Do you believe in love at first sight? i believe in fatuation that leads to discovery and interaction which leads to love.

Do you believe in love forever? yes

Do you believe in long distance relationships? maybe, but it's tough

Do you believe in cheating? what kind of cheating? tests? YES. LOL

Do you believe in romance? yes.

What's the sweetest thing a boy/girl has done for you? uh, don't recall..

Make believe or reality? MAKE BELIEVE. reality hurts too much

Happy endings or realistic ones? happy.

Ever done drugs? nope

Ever smoked a cigarette? once. i hate smoking!~

Ever do it? i ansed this just now..

Ever PDA-ed? yes D:

Ever dirty danced? nope

Ever been to a strip club? nope

What attracts you to the opposite sex? smile/eyes

What's the most attractive thing about yourself? nothing.

Who is the last person you liked? _____. you mean the world to me, but i can't tell you. you'll never know.

If you had 1 wish, what would it be? probably to turn back time.

If you could travel back in time, what would you change? choosing to get tgt w ____, ____. meeting you? nah. i'd say the pain's worth it.

If you could be right next to someone right now, who'd it be? you.

Why do you fall in love? i don't know, really. i guess if i knew i could avoid it

Why do you like the person you like? because of who he is. :O

If one celebrity were most like you, who'd it be? patricia mok!

Who are the most important people to you? my parents, my siblings, my friends. God.

Would you die for them? very very very likely.

Would they die for you? i think so. God sent his son to, that's for sure [:

Are you in love with anyone of them? sadly, yes.

Would you be able to live on an island with them? definitely. it'd be paradise

Ever kissed and left? er, what?

What do you want for christmas? Yooouu

Are you going to spend christmas with the person you like/love? i'm grateful i could see you

Does christmas mean something to you? yes.

What's your best christmas experience so far? sister cutting christmas tree lights like 10 years ago :x

What's your worst christmas experience so far? idk.

New years mean anything to you? new beginning..

Any resolutions? Yep. lose more weight. set up bunny kingdom. study. be neat/organised. bowl. excel. etc.

Do you miss anyone right now? yes.

Have you ever felt lonely? yes.

Ever felt suicidal? probably not

Ever felt like the luckiest person alive? maybe. (:

Finish this line.

Can't stop thinking about ___________

My mistakes, and you.

Tonight is going to be _________

something.

Love is __________

unconditional, amazing. A blessing, a curse.

Life is __________

what we make of it.

My friends are ________

the reason why I can keep going strong

My love life is ________

tragic.

My family is __________

falling/fallen apart.

I am __________.

hopeful.

You are ________.

everything to me.

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 10:33 PM

If i said it like i mean it, then maybe i'd believe it like it's true.. Not likely. OKAY. i hope this will just fade. you're preoccupied. it's not good for either of us, really. especially you.. i don't know.

it'll never work out, that's for sure. if i can even dare to think that something MIGHT happen, impossible as it is. this is disastrous. i mean, why you? i don't know, really. why now? why? why her? i really don't know. fate is a cruel thing.

But haven't I always loved you?

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03 January, 2010 | 11:20 PM

i've decided. nothing can come of this hope but disappointment. who am i kidding? i'm just deceiving myself, thinking i had a chance. goodbye...

but it's not that easy. i can't let go just like that. how i wish i could. maybe it's enough for me to see you happy. please, be happy.

But haven't I always loved you?

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| 8:55 AM

it's over, there's no going back. i'm relieved!!!! but for another reason? was there an ulterior motive.

AM I REALLY F***ING HEARTLESS???? i may be. bullocks.

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02 January, 2010 | 11:46 PM

i won't give up
i won't give in

or have i already?

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| 8:54 AM

i have gone from VAIR SICK to a lil sick, but still sick. let's see..

lil sore throat to [voice starting to lose]
uber-sore throat to [voice lost] [insert cough]
on-the-verge-of-death-sore throat to [insert 1g godforsaken augmentin tablets]

okay i'm getting too caught up with inserting cute things HAHA so. ugh. anyway, even after taking the godforsaken 1g augmentin tablets that are the size of my pinky (fine, half the size) i am not fully well. prolly cos i didn't take 7 aka the full course, i only took 6. because i threw one up. Pssh.

THIS BLOG SKIN IS SO NICE!! a certain unnamed individual is to be blamed >:( i had to relink and.. well, edit this blogskin. WHICH IS/WAS ONE HECK OF A CHALLENGING TASK. anyway i will end here to see how this post turns out so i can edit the post things. bwahaha.

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